Teenage Inspiration

Dec 30

What is on My Mind. (#1)

At the begining of September, I renewed my love for YouTube. this led to finding a ton of new vloggers who i enjoy immensely, including Alex Day (nerimon). He also happens to be a brilliant musician that I love to pieces. His album ‘Parrot Stories’ is a mix of incredibly cute love songs and kind of really depressing amazing techno ballads, if you can imagine that. The way he writes strikes a deep chord with me, how he can have the simplest lines that would seem magnificently cliched anywhere else are the most profound thing you have ever heard. And his adorable little English accent can be heard obviously, which makes it better. I have never ever had songs that affect me or stay with me like Candy Floss and Don’t Look Back, and both for very different reasons. The love that is protrayed in these songs is evident no matter what the topic is. It’s too good for words and I am really tempted to email him repeatedly with my praise. This seemed to be a better option. Ta ta for now!

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List of tracks on this album-

A thousand hours

hearts

no more

holding on

candy floss

no sacrifice

what you do

impossible dreams

how we were

sicily

don’t look back 

Dec 28

YouTube survey! Yeah I’m That Cool.

1. Tell us about your first kiss.

I was eleven and it was with a boy named Preston who was fourteen and he was from Oklahoma, yeah it was a bit weird and dumb really…

2. What is the most expensive piece of casual clothing you have ever bought?

Wellll…I think it’d be my DC shoes which cost $50 of my father’s money. haha.

3. What was the first job you wanted as a kid?

I wanted to be a veterinarian, and then I was like, screw animals.

4. Tell us about your group of school friends.

Um…I am really close at school with two girls and the rest of the people I’m like yeah whatever cool its you.

5. What do u want to name your kids?

I really like the name Seamus for a boy and Wonder Blake for a girl. I’m weird soooo…

Dec 26

Suicide.

If you can’t geuss from the title, I just found out that a boy I knew killed himself last night. I met him through a church youth group we were involved in and even though I didn’t know him well, he means a lot to me. In March, I met him when he visited our church (he was from Olympia) and I was forced to interact with people I didn’t know. We talked about our converse, and I told him his were really cool because they were blue with lime green laces and little cartoons all over them.  I DON”T UNDERSTAND IT. The reason you come to Y.O.U., the reason you spend all this time with these people is so that you know you have people there for you. after four years, how did he not know that? I love him, he was such an amazing person and he seemed so joyous and capable. He was so young. Probably eighteen. I sat nest to him in our intention setting ceremony we had at our retreat this summer. The man who lead it told us to sshout into the circle what we needed for that week. The lights were dim and everyone had closed their eyes. Dillon had so much to say, words that held power for him, but i was stiff and quiet and unwilling the whole time. and when it started to wind down i screamed, flashing open my eyes. ACCEPTANCE. He literally flinched. I will miss him. I will miss him so much. I’m crying and hurting and no one knows what to do anymore to help. WE SHOULD HAVE BEEN HELPING HIM. Its too late now and that knife will cut me forever. od i feel helpless. What a shit Christmas.

Dec 23

CHERIMON?! i think yes.

soooooo i totallly love the idea of it as well as being Mrs. Cherimon. oh yeah itd be fun and everyone knows it. and i notice there aare not very many cherimon fanfics that are tagged. sad. i enjoy them they make me laugh. mabye ill write some…..hehehehe

BTW WTF IS SHIPPING???!!! i dont understandddddd….

Dec 21

yay first post thingy…

yay first post thingy…